I would love to write a book one day. I would love to be locked on a room with just the primary colours and a blank canvas. I would love to bleed my sou onto canvas, to start again, to begin, to end, to try. I would love to remember what it feels like to not be afraid anymore. I would love to start a blog that people read. I would love toake money online. I would love it if money wasn’t an option. Most of all I love to love him. I love him dearly, with all my heart. The best place in the world is in his arms, listening to his beating heart, cradled under his arm, listening, watching, but knowing I AM SAFE. I AM Cherished. I am loved. It’s an instant whisper of hope 8nto the withered forest that has become my heart. It’s me it’s love its freedom. And there is no would or should in it.
I am proud to say that I have found a man, I have found a love, that is bigger than the me I was yesterday, the me I am supposed to become and the me that I am struggling to be. I have found a good man. And I have loved and continue to love him well.
I've got borderline personality disorder. I'm divorced. I'm in my early thirties. I'm really confused.
I'm in a relationship. I'm an entrepreneur. I'm honest. I like to think I'm a good person. I'm definitely an empathic person. I'm a caring person. I try to make the world a better place.
I experience extreme highs and extreme lows. I have difficulty processing emotions. I have difficulty maintaining relationships. I've got an extreme fear of abandonment. I'm still learning how to be a better me.
I have low self-esteem. You'll have to look very far to find a more loving person than me. I love deeply and fiercely.
I love dogs. I love dancing, writing, poetry. Occasionally my posts include poetry. Most of the time it's just me talking to you.
It helps me process things. It helps me remember things. It helps me create a sort of constant reminder of who I am.
I'm grateful to those of you who read my posts and leave a helpful comment. I try to include helpful links to resources and stuff, when I can.
This platform means the world to me. I've met some really wise, amazing and supportive people. Thank you for giving me a space where I can literally just be me - no holds barred.
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