More lonely when I’m not alone

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I get it

My emotions are not your problem

And your problems

I can’t solve them

You won’t let me

And you won’t leave me

In any other way

Than emotionally

You don’t need me

I don’t remember when last you held me

Told me anything about you

Or me

Do you remember how it used to be?

I lost you

And I love you

We’re still married,

But only in name

Your as cold as ice my love

And there’s nothing I can do to bring you back to life.

I can’t have a relationship with a rock

Your God, my God?

Has only taken you from me

And I’m left behind

Alone in the dark

Alone in the mirror

Alone always alone

I drown in a river of what could be

What should be

Won’t be

Ever since

You gave up on me

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I've got borderline personality disorder. I'm divorced. I'm in my early thirties. I'm really confused. I'm in a relationship. I'm an entrepreneur. I'm honest. I like to think I'm a good person. I'm definitely an empathic person. I'm a caring person. I try to make the world a better place. I experience extreme highs and extreme lows. I have difficulty processing emotions. I have difficulty maintaining relationships. I've got an extreme fear of abandonment. I'm still learning how to be a better me. I have low self-esteem. You'll have to look very far to find a more loving person than me. I love deeply and fiercely. I love dogs. I love dancing, writing, poetry. Occasionally my posts include poetry. Most of the time it's just me talking to you. It helps me process things. It helps me remember things. It helps me create a sort of constant reminder of who I am. I'm grateful to those of you who read my posts and leave a helpful comment. I try to include helpful links to resources and stuff, when I can. This platform means the world to me. I've met some really wise, amazing and supportive people. Thank you for giving me a space where I can literally just be me - no holds barred.

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