My sweetheart, you were my first love, my only love. I hate loving you and I love hating you.
My darling I would’ve jumped over the moon for you. I would’ve picked out the stars myself if this would put the sparkles back in your eyes. I would’ve done every single thing under the sun for you.
Why did it have to be like this?
Your love turned to hate so fast. Each breathe I take hurts. Each song is a memory. Each touch is torture. Each memory is painful. I loved sweetheart. I love you still. My heart aches for you. I want to hold you and tell you everything is going to be okay. I want to love and have you forever and always. The truth is everything will never be okay again. Goodbye darling. I wish you well. All the best for you. Just by the way I really did love you.
I've got borderline personality disorder. I'm divorced. I'm in my early thirties. I'm really confused.
I'm in a relationship. I'm an entrepreneur. I'm honest. I like to think I'm a good person. I'm definitely an empathic person. I'm a caring person. I try to make the world a better place.
I experience extreme highs and extreme lows. I have difficulty processing emotions. I have difficulty maintaining relationships. I've got an extreme fear of abandonment. I'm still learning how to be a better me.
I have low self-esteem. You'll have to look very far to find a more loving person than me. I love deeply and fiercely.
I love dogs. I love dancing, writing, poetry. Occasionally my posts include poetry. Most of the time it's just me talking to you.
It helps me process things. It helps me remember things. It helps me create a sort of constant reminder of who I am.
I'm grateful to those of you who read my posts and leave a helpful comment. I try to include helpful links to resources and stuff, when I can.
This platform means the world to me. I've met some really wise, amazing and supportive people. Thank you for giving me a space where I can literally just be me - no holds barred.
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