Words don’t fail me now

I heard a knock upon my door the other day
I opened it to find death staring in my face
The feel of mortal stalking still reverberates
Everywhere I go I drag this coffin just in caseMy bodies tremblin’ sends shivers down my spine
Adrenaline kicks and shifts into overdrive,
Your secrets keep you sick your lies keep you alive
Snake eyes every single time you roll with crooked dice
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past I’m praying feet don’t fail me now!

I’ve lost my god damn mind,
It happens all the time,
I can’t believe I’m actually
Meant to be here,
Trying to consume,
The drug in me is you
And I’m so high on misery
Can’t you see!I got these questions always running through my head
So many things that I would like to understand
If we are born to die and we all die to live
Then what’s the point of living life if it just contradicts?
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past I’m praying feet don’t fail me now!I’ve lost my god damn mind
It happens all the time
I can’t believe I’m actually
Meant to be here
Trying to consume,
The drug in me is you
And I’m so high on misery
Can’t you see!I’ve lost
Myself
You tried to reach me but you just can’t help me
So long
Goodbye
You tried to save me it wont work this time!’Cause now
I’ve lost my fucking mind
And there’s no fucking time
I can’t believe I’m actually
Meant to be here
Trying to consume,
The drug in me is you
And I’m so high on misery
Can’t you see?
Oh can’t you see?
Can’t you see?

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Michael Baskette / David Edgecombe Holdredge / Ronnie RadkeThe Drug in Me Is You lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.

I’ve lost my fucking mind and there’s no fucking time… I can’t believe I’m actually meant to be here… I’m so scared of turning out just like you dad. You were the most beautiful person in the world – my superhero. And I watched you lose your soul. Slowly over time. You turned into…someone I hardly knew, making choices that the old you never would have…. And I swore… I swore I wouldn’t be like you…ever… I would never forget myself like that. I would remember, I would remember what is truely important in life.

All I wanted was a family, dad. But you left me alone on the battlefield, didn’t you dad? And you whatched me being raped over and over and over again. And when the battle was over no one came to help me… I got up by myself and walked out of there on my own….with nothing. Nothing. Do you hear me? Nothing!

And even now…the nothing stays…and every family I’ve ever longed for leaves me. And on top of that, my world is working out to look so very similar to yours. It’s scary. But I, I swear to God, I will not, will never, no matter what happens from here, lose my soul. I’d rather lose my fingers, my feet, my will to live, but not my soul. No never, because that – I’ve seen that is a fate worse than death.

I have to find a way though…to move on with my life… Tread lightly dear….

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