It’s a little bit funny…
This feeling inside.
When all I want to do is get out there
and at the same time hide.
You can tell everybody
that this is a show,
but somewhere inside you…
This hide and seek life continually loops
and I’m the girl in the spotlight, by the lamppost
in the corner of the room.
I watch porn because it makes me feel dead inside,
Is that to honest? Possibly.
But now that it’s out at least
it’s out there anonymously.
Sometimes I feel I’ll never ‘get’ myself, but then again – no,
If this is who I am then I deserve to know.
It’s been a long time avoiding,
so much shame so much guilt,
so mixed up in worlds
filled with hurt to the hilt.
And you can tell everybody,
That now you know me,
The truth will be very simply
You can’t know what you can’t see.