I LOST MYSELF AGAIN

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Help.

I lost myself

Inside myself

Again

And its so hard to remember

Me

Who is that even

and does it matter

Do not let me be

but let me go

and lets see

if I’ll ever know

myself ever again

See when I was with him

He was there

I had someone to serve

Someone to stand by

believe in

support

Build a life around

A home

And now?

Now he is gone

and me with him

An empty shell

A person I don’t know

A life I don’t want to live

So much confusion

Is what I am left with

And I’m scared

I’m so scared

to be honest

I’m to scared to think

or live or breathe

more than one breathe at a time

Yet I wonder,

How I wonder

Who the hell am I?

Again???

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I've got borderline personality disorder. I'm divorced. I'm in my early thirties. I'm really confused. I'm in a relationship. I'm an entrepreneur. I'm honest. I like to think I'm a good person. I'm definitely an empathic person. I'm a caring person. I try to make the world a better place. I experience extreme highs and extreme lows. I have difficulty processing emotions. I have difficulty maintaining relationships. I've got an extreme fear of abandonment. I'm still learning how to be a better me. I have low self-esteem. You'll have to look very far to find a more loving person than me. I love deeply and fiercely. I love dogs. I love dancing, writing, poetry. Occasionally my posts include poetry. Most of the time it's just me talking to you. It helps me process things. It helps me remember things. It helps me create a sort of constant reminder of who I am. I'm grateful to those of you who read my posts and leave a helpful comment. I try to include helpful links to resources and stuff, when I can. This platform means the world to me. I've met some really wise, amazing and supportive people. Thank you for giving me a space where I can literally just be me - no holds barred.

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