There is something fantastically beautiful about being completely utterly and forever anonymous. I tell you things that I would never tell anyone else ever… which means we’re closer than I’ll ever be to any other human being in ‘real’ life EVER. Isn’t that magical? It means I get to tell you my deepest, darkest secrets, my most intimate intimidating fears, my realest hopes and dreams and beliefs…and you never judge me…because you don’t know me…you don’t have a name for me….other than the alias I put on wordpress…I am nameless to you, worthless in a way, and yet…you’re always here….whenever I need you…
This blank canvas in front of me…it never changes…its always ready to accept my latest failure, absorb my most painful tears…those ones that I don’t cry in front of anyone else ever…absorb my latest hopes… And when I’m gone one day…those fears, those hopes, the things I’ve seen and the way that they made me feel…will still be here…words on paper…whispers in the wind.
Isn’t that mindblowing?
Also, I just made another one of my blog posts into an audio post…wanna have a listen and let me know what you think? 🙂 Would appreciate it. Thank you for listening…always…I love you…
Audio Blog Entry from 2 August 2020 – Miss Nothing:
4 Months after I escaped my ex-husband and this is still one of my favorite songs…and I don’t know if I’ll ever move on from here, but there’s a sweetness to this misery…a kind of freedom in being… Miss Nothing…and Miss Everything…all at once… #breakupramblings #breakupsong
I’m miss autonomy, miss nowhere I’m at the bottom of me Miss androgyny, miss don’t care What I’ve done to meI am misused, I don’t wanna do Be not your slave Misguided, I mind it I’m missin’ the trainAnd I don’t know where I’ve been And I don’t know what I’m into And I don’t know what I’ve done to meAnd as I watch you disappear into the ground My one mistake was that I never let you down So I’ll waste my time and I’ll burn my mind On miss nothing, miss everythingI’m miss fortune, miss so soon I’m like a bottle of pain Miss matter, you had her Now she’s goin’ away
I’m misused, misconstrued I don’t need to be saved Miss slighted, I mind it I’m stuck in the rainAnd I don’t know where I am And I don’t know what I’m into And I don’t know what I’ve done to meAnd as I watch you disappear into the ground My one mistake was that I couldn’t let you down So I’ll waste my time and I’ll burn my mind On miss nothing, miss everythingMiss everythingAnd as I watch you disappear into my head Well, there’s a man who’s tellin’ me I might be dead So I’ll waste my time and I’ll burn my mind So I’ll waste my time and I’ll burn my mind On miss nothing, miss everything
Listen to/ watch the Audio/ Video blog entry on Youtube: